Freedom

You opened my heart
and set my spirit free
you let me see
that all i need
is just me
you let me love again

A fairytale

Mathew: What's wrong?
Jada: Everyone here has a home and I don't.
Mathew: Yes you do. Home is where the heart is.
Jada My heart was stolen and broken, so i have no home.
Mathew: Here you can have my home
Jada: I might break it..
Mathew: NO you won't, you know how it feels
Jada: But now you don't have a home
Mathew:Silly!, My home is wherever you are
Jada: You want to share it with me?
Mathew: Of course, its no fun to live alone

Find your bearings

Lost trying to find her way,
where did she belong?
Alone? with them or with him.
thrown off her track
just trying to get back
and end her confusing ways
find who she is meant to be,
so she looks to him,
he just turned her away,
but it was already too late!
she thought she had found her way
but once away was thrown away.
torn and damaged, hurt and alone
with not a soul to turn to,
so there she wanted to lay
but not having a choice was forced on her way
alone and scared, waiting
till she find the one who
wont ever turn her away

salvation

Lead me back to all your chosen ways
I no longer want to go astray,
I need you in my life,
no longer can i stand this strife
without you my heart will never heal,
once again I need to feel,
your presence in my soul

The Taste of Freedom

Im happy,
because today you are being freed
and I am still free,
no longer afraid,
ready to face you,
and no longer run away.
It is today
That you have lost the key
I am the only one that has it. Just me!
Come as you may,
But here the key will lay
locked away

Farwell

What is a goodbye?
Does it come after the lie,
I'll always miss you,
or the truth I don't want you to leave.
Is this the kinda of Goodbye
No person ever wants to say,
Where its behind a grave,
and its a one sided goodbye
or is it the kind where you don't have to say your goodbyes
but it is for the best, its more of must
No this is the kinda of goodbye,
where neither want to say it,
But it must be done
even though you'll miss each and every bit,
of them, But It must be said
Someone must make this end!
This the kinda of goodbye
where i still will look in your eye
and cry, after our goodbye

5 years after why say goodbye

Jada and John meet after a close friend has passed away, They greet with a hug its the first time they have spoken since the have said goodbye

John "umm hi"
Jada "hi"
John "Are you okay?"
Jada "No"
John "shes in heaven"
Jada "i know"
John "you don't believe me do you?"
Jada "I don't believe in God, there's no heaven"
John "How can you look at the world and not believe"
Jada "No god would have let my best friend walk away 5 years ago or killed my other best friend"
John "I still miss you, I wish we could have been friends"
Jada "I know"
John "Im with someone"
Jada "me too"
John "really?"
Jada "no "
John "yeah im not with anyone either"
Jada "I know"
John "You always did"
Jada "Of course i loved you and i still know you like the back of my hand"
John "Yeah? I bet you weren't expecting this, want to try again?"
Jada "I was expecting that. And no"
John "I love you"
Jada "i know, I don't believe in love anymore."
John "why?"
Jada "because my best friend took my heart away 5 years ago"
John "want it back?"
Jada "No it just brought me pain I'm happy now"
John "I want to give it back"
Jada "i know"
John "here take it"
Jada "no it doesn't fit in my chest anymore."

Why say goodbye

John :"Just let go dont let your emotion show"
Jada "How can i? when your all ive ever known."
John:"Its for the best"
Jada:" I know"
John " Im sorry"
Jada "I know"
John " I still love you"
Jada " I know"
John " dont cry it will be alright"
Jada " No it wont"
John " why not?"
Jada " because i still love you too"
John " it wont work"
Jada " I know"
John " " Can we be friends"
Jada "no"
John " i want to be friends"
Jada " I know"
John "so?"
Jada "goodbye"
He kissed her for the last time
Only if he knew, that their love could have won

Stupid Girl

You complain about how he broke your heart
when down the road from you, shes being beat
You act like your life cant go on without him
when really his life will end tomorrow.
Or she just lost her child.
But your to heart broken to notice
Stupid girl cant you see
Everything is meant to be
Some draw the short end
But cant you see
Your lucky
Because you'll live to see another day
and maybe break someone else heart,
but at least your not being beat

What you did

What you said you wanted,
was for me to let it be
to be happy with just me
and forget and forgive,
You said you wanted me happy
But you play with me like a cat toys with a baby mouse
unable to escape the cats claws
you really want to be with me
But it is you that cant let it be
It is not me!
You just think it is
and make me think its all me,
but when its really all you
But now your gone and
have been trapped from me
but I,
I have been freed,
But i cant help but ask,
how long my freedom will last?
Before you are freed,
and trap me with your claws,
and toy with me till i break.
So do me a favor and stay trapped

No more pain

And then she understood,
she must forget her feelings,
throw them to the ground,
have them ran over by a car.
Buried in the ground
for no one to see.
Sharing them only took from her
she felt incomplete
but now no one will take from her.
the feelings are no longer to be seen.
Buried deep covered with a smile
for no one to ever see again

Stupid boy 2

Dearest Stupid Boy,
Why couldnt you just have seen?
we were meant to be?
WE could forever be
You said you finnaly understood you werent meant for her
so what about me?
But youll never see.
and we will never be.
So you gave me the next best things friends,
but your no where to be seen and im here on this plane
wondering where on earth you could be,
stupid boy if you had just seen
that it was i meant for you
a life would have been saved

Falling

Im falling,
no one to catch me and bring me home
Im falling into the past
I only can rememeber what we had
I cant see what it is now.
I need someone to pull me out of this cloud of past

Underneath the stars

Look to the stars and rememeber me,
no matter where youll be
even if your still without me
Ill look to the stars and
rememeber what we had
an everlasting love,
like the stars, but we forgot
that all stars must burn out
Even if youve forgot
ill always rememeber that,
night in that speacial lot.

Who are you?

I look to the skies on a mid August evening, and see millions of stars.
So tiny and bright, and then i look to the ground and see each tiny piece of grass,
making the lawn what is.And I wonder to myself.
Am I like a star to the world, to be admired and wished upon,
or am I like a piece of grass to be stepped upon and cut down.
Or did I start as a piece of grass and grow into a tree,
that stands tall and strong to supporta young child in its need,
or am ilike a shooting star, a rare extremity.
I think id chose to be a big strong tree to help thee,
or maybe a shooting star to give you hope
I just dont know , what would you be?